If you've read my book, The Dog Who Rescued Me, (by Jerri Kay Lincoln!), you would know that part of the issues with Moki were my issues. So, here's another one.
A couple weeks ago
while Moki and I were hiking, I looked ahead on the trail and saw a
couple dogs that looked loose. I called out and said, “Are your dogs on leash?”
The woman replied,
“No, but they’re fine.”
I said, “My dog
is afraid of other dogs,” and I took Moki off the trail so they
could go by. While they walked by, I pulled Moki behind me. The
first dog started to come over, so I said, “SSShhh,” to it and it
continued up the trail. The second dog tried to come over and the
woman stopped it.
As the man walked
by, he said, “Lady, you need to chill out.”
I was furious,
although I didn’t say anything at the time. All I could think
about was giving him a synopsis of what had happened and tell him a
thing or two or three.
Days and days went
by before we took that trail again. Sure enough, we ran into them
again. When I saw them, I told the man the synopsis and told him he
shouldn’t be so judgmental. He said, “You’re crazy, lady.”
He used an expletive, and the woman said to him, “Brad!”
As the woman walked
by, I told her that it was honestly a true story. I got to say to
him what I wanted to say and it didn’t make me feel one iota
better.
Moki and I
continued down the trail and I had a revelation. I needed to be
right! When I was in therapy with Ryan, I had told him that I didn’t
think I needed to be right anymore. And here it was evidence that I
still needed to be right.
And it woke me up
to something else. I had been wanting to write an email to Steve and
Hildy saying that my fear should have been enough reason for them to
honor my request about their two dogs. My friend, Jennifer, told me
that I shouldn’t, but I was going to write to Ryan hoping that he
would agree with me. When this happened with “Brad,” I realized
that writing to Steve and Hildy was again trying to prove that I was
right. Get over it! I really don’t need that anymore.